I like many others, have been spending a whole lot of time over the last several months working on me, my attitude, my focus and what my legacy might be. I tend to do this every few years but frankly this one has been forced upon me and others by the lovely dare I say “Covid-19 Pandemic”.
I have personally come to the realization that the universe and current events have forced me and others, fully functioning adults to take a “time out” and to focus on ourselves and where our journey is taking us. It seems like it has been a really long, windy and grip provoking ride and I for one am not sure it is over.
During the last several months, I have found myself going through many different moments of confusion asking myself “am I am crazy” or “am I losing it” or “what if” or “did I do the right thing”. I have even gone so far as asking myself “if I was hanging around the right people”, you know the ones “who align with my goals and dreams” or if I was even “creating the right life for me,” I have even gone so far as asking “was I a good parent”. I have found myself rethinking relationships and actions and finding that some are not serving me, while others I thought were not, actually are. I have found that I have lost my way and as a result I have slowed my progress towards my ideal life because of the reactions of others, which I blame myself for, because I have allowed me to not be me because it seemed easier to just not confront…(things are much much better now btw)
Yes, it’s been a bit nuts over here for sure!
I am not sure if all of these “confused moments” were brought on by the stress of being alone during the height of the pandemic or if it was just my time for questioning, but I guess it doesn’t matter the why because it is still happening.
After spending a lot of time sitting with my thoughts, I realized a few things that I think can and will catapult me into my next phase of my life!
I realized that sometimes a “timeout” such as a pandemic does the trick by forcing humans to take time off from things that are making them feel a bit crazy and BAM, I feel like I can think again.
I definitely can thank my friends and my Coach (yup) and others for the time they gave me to allow me to vent and process. I guess I have found meeting with others who are willing to just listen not only makes me feel less alone during this time, but it also reminds me I am supported, not alone, which in turn has helped me see I am going to be ok! It has helped – a lot. I have begun to see what situations help me and which don’t, and I have learned which friends are in my life to just allow us to “be” even if either one of us is in our “crazy” moment.
Now all of these “thoughts and aha moments” have not all been “fun and games” for sure. I have found myself losing some of the most important relationships in my life (though I hope that will change in the future) and I am finding myself off because of it.
I have remembered that, we are what we think and as such we each tell ourselves a story about life all the time.
During this time, I have been reminded that as humans we can control our own mind. I have also been reminded that lessons like this recur in our lives and we learn from them if we listen, and I have been reminded that it always affects our mental thoughts of how ok I am, but unless we listen, we don’t grow.
Sure, our minds thoughts can range from having NO recollection of a part of our life we have lived, to wondering if we are seeing things clearly in the moment, to a denial of what is going on right in front of our eyes.
But then I remember that the purpose of these time-outs is for us to step back, take a deep breathe and rethink our path, our choices and yes even or story. Then and only then can we decide which way to go from here.
I know that I tend to go on and on during my blogs but stick with me here!
I have found that the main purpose of our forced time out is to remind us that something in our live is out of wack so to speak. This happens to everyone whether they admit it or not and it happens when it does for a reason, so the first step is to confirm that you are capable of creating peace for yourself because the way out is the way through!! We all deserve a life that thrives.
Reality is taking a time out turns our focus inward towards what’s going on in our life. It is a time to spend in meditation, thinking about yourself and where and what your life means to you.
While reflecting on these ideas, acknowledge the thoughts going through your minds but remember to just observe, as they will become more clear and welcomed in your life.
During this time, we can allow us to make sense of relationships, family, friends, and current work life too. Remember this is a good thing. Being able to create space for ourselves, and taking the time to look at, I mean really look at things allows us to see what things, actions or responsibilities are serving us and which are not.
I guess this all comes to the fact that giving ourselves the gift of time to reflect offers us deep insights about the things that are currently affecting our lives good bad or indifferent, and that my friends is cool!!!!
Thank you, universe,
Peace and Happiness
