“And, when you want something,
all the universe conspires in
helping you to achieve it.” Paulo Coehlo
For many years now, I have talked about buying a piece of land and putting several tiny homes on it. To share this land and my homes with my friends and family would be a must and to invite those who wanted support, in finding themselves, to visit as well. All these things are important in helping me keep MY dreams and goals alive, by not compromising for once, by not giving into or putting others ahead of me, but still being of service to all who I can support
“The art of happiness is to serve all. To be truly happy,
we must think not only of how we can help ourselves,
but how we can help others.”
In recent months, my drive, attention and thoughts about this dream have been very strong. Thinking about this new chapter in my life has been a part of every single day of my life lately. Without a doubt, the choice to uproot my family, from the only home we have ever known and to move to another place, is one of the biggest (and craziest) decisions I have ever had to make this lifetime. Believe me this decision to move, it is not made without choices, without self-reflection, without millions of tears or without many many sacrifices.
In effort to be more proactive in my life, I have spent time working with several different coaches myself, to better understand how to live my life with purpose. I have been searching for how to align with my purpose, how my dreams and goals would be of value and how the pursuit of true happiness, helpfulness, enlightenment and being spiritually free, not only for me, but for others, as well, could be obtained. Basically, I have been asking for guidance on how to live a well-balanced life for me, my family, my friends and those around me, all while, being authentic and creative, to help impact and find meaning in my time here on this planet and to support those around me to do the same. Phew it’s been a lot and I have a long way to go!
Recent realizations through this guidance and help…I have been living, working, and following a career path recently that feels off. I have become to entangled in trying to show others why I know what I know, why I do what I do, and why it is important for them to see and understand all the WHYs. Reality is, I should be spending time just doing what I can do to help, by listening, guiding and lifting those up who are reaching for supportJ and nothing more should be needed. I want to be living my truths with an open heart, sharing my openness of love without the fear of being misunderstood or having to “live up to the expectations of others”. I just want to strive for being there to hold space when needed – that should just be it!!! I need to follow the life path I have been searching and striving for. Supporting others, creating art, connecting with nature on many levels and living peacefully and true to my beliefs (not playing the ego and catch up to others game) and well just being me – making a difference by supporting and loving others deeply without judgment and without any expectations of anything in return. I have always tried to live my life as an open book, no hidden agendas, no bullshit and no lies. I have found myself trying to defend that lately and making this decision right now has helped show me now is the time.
The struggle, I have come to see that my decisions do not come easily… My heart has been hurting more recently then ever in my life, truly. My fears of leaving those I love with all my heart, is by far harder then I think I have ever been tested before. Finding the real me, walking away from those I love, and the fear of being alone are all real! What will I do, where exactly will I live and who will join me to reach for their dreams, goals and happiness is all up in the air. I LOVE my friends! I am scared, no I am terrified, but, I must do this, for I know in my heart it is time for change.
“Don’t give in to your fears. If you do,
you won’t be able to talk to your
heart.” Paulo Coehlo
So, here is my hope for this first decision for the rest of my life – I want to be happy, I want to reconnect to nature even more, I want to re-find and redefine love deep within me and I want to spread my joy and hopes for love, peace and the pursuit of happiness for myself and others, to those I can hold space for and help make difference in. Time to stop trying to help and time to start doing it with myself and those who are on similar but different paths towards that of achievement. Time to stop “explaining” me and time to start living me without explanations or doubts, just truths!
I also figured out that if I live in a safe, spiritually enlightening, and creative space that the rest will come. I can always seek out help from others from anywhere. I am not bound to just my property, I can visit, reach out and explore so much more of the world because I will be able to think more clearly by being in this safe space, the possibilities of work anywhere, traveling more and exploration are all possible because of my created home base – Shugar Nation is happening (lots of space, gardens, water, yoga space, a yes even a ****** 
it will all be there)
So, I’m relocating to Oregon. This is my calling and it is time to create and for reminding that we can make a better “existence”. I hope this new chapter in my life and that of my family and friends brings much happiness to all who seek it, my space is your space for however long you want it to support you in your journey!
So there you have it folks. The truth is out, it is true and it is happening. I am not sure of the timeline the universe has for this new chapter in my life, but, if it is anything like the rest of my life, I am sure it will be fast and furious. I hope to share a lot, and to keep true to the fact that I live my life like an open book without hidden agendas, I hope over time to stop feeling like my actions being not good enough, ever, even though I know they are genuine, and I hopes I can keep helping others and myself, learn, grow and heal along the way.
Follow my new adventures with me, maybe learn something and challenge me when you have a question or suggestion and join me when you feel the call! If there’s one thing I’ve learned recently – don’t be transparent, be authentic even when others don’t see it – just do it.
Peace out….
p.s. I am still Life Coaching (my location does not matter) I will be here in So Cal every month for Happy Hikers weekends and private hiking sessions … We will be adding Monthly Happy Hikers in Oregon too btw (info soon but April in Oregon is looking pretty nice!) – Just schedule me in to your calendar LETS DO THIS
